My first page this month shares why I was so worried and feeling very down. I have been having some issues involving my face. Stinging and burning were constant and my skin was a bit of a mess. I went to the dermatologist and was told that I have rosacea. I immediately panicked because it is a chronic condition. Having an issue involving your face provokes some anxiety. This page was made shortly after I found out.
The themes are very pronounced on this page. I used a photo of me with my face not really showing because sometimes I feel like I want to hide. I also incorporated the mirrors because I have been avoiding and yet, constantly, seeking them. I am a nervous and obsessive person so I don't always deal well with things I can't control. I placed the butterfly down as a symbol of hope even though I felt sad.
I picked the red paper to represent the redness that occurs with rosacea. I stuck the words lovely and cute under the red paper on purpose. I share my feelings and my thoughts.
I am happy to say that the rosacea is mild and I am on medication, which is helping. I have made some changes in my diet and I am feeling better already. I needed it to be put in perspective. I don't have a life-threatening disease or a life-changing disability. I have many blessings in life and there are ways to manage this condition. My being anxious and stressed was only hurting the situation.
I love when a creative outlet can help you communicate your thoughts, help you express your worry. By the time I was done with this page, I felt relieved and proud.